Mistakes are always plagued within the past. There is no escape present from the decisions one wishes they would’ve done, instead of the ones that inadvertently came to represent the past. Mistakes are known as a method of growing, maturation, and even positivity in a deeper sense. There is no redos. Everyone person wishes they didn’t do something in their life. That is no overstatement. For some people there are more wrongs than rights in their life. But, what else can be done, other than to better one in an attempt to mend the past. In a short note, there are always people who get hurt. People get hurt everyday. Some more than others. But, if you know you have hurt someone. Just try the simple apology. Remind them of the better times. Just show you gave enough to at least say sorry. It is never to late to apologize. An apology is nothing more than a clean band aid on a dirty wound. The wound must heal over time. It’s not an instantaneous fix. The wound can only heal through proper care. This care is just the attempt to show you care for the person. In an attempt to save the old times, one must recreate them in the times of the present.

(Source: misterjuicy, via januaryxoxox)

My girlfriend showed me my gift! I didn’t even ask her to get me one. She bought all my favorite foods, candies, and drinks. And on top of that she bought me 35 NBA valentine’s day cards! She knows everything I liked. It may not seem like much, but honestly this means a lot more. She bought everything I personally love. She knew how much I love basketball. And how much I love food. The little things matter to me. How she knows my favorite foods and hobbies. Thanks for the gift baby!

Where did you go. My girl. We met at a dining hall. We had a mutual friend. We talked a lot. You made me peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and walked me to class. You gave me hugs. You told me all about your life. We would walk to the most random food joints in the middle of the night. We have our own spot. We have our lazy saturdays where we would do nothing. We can watch “New Girl” which is our show. We have our own douche bag jar which sucks because I always have to put a dollar in. We use to workout together. Suicides on the hardwood. Basketball outside in the freezing cold where we would make the stupidest fouls on one another. We would sleep together night after night. We had each other’s backs. We shared our first Black Friday together. We had our list of places to eat, movies to watch. You saw me after my surgery and played on my basketball court, the place where most of my memories lie. We still have San Francisco. We went to Disneyland together and spent 20 hours in the park and still managed to spend another 2 hours after that. I can list so many moments with you to the point where I can write a book. We were each other’s rock. We supported each other. Now I let you go. I didn’t watch over you. I failed you. You hate me. You don’t care what happens to me anymore. You go to a complete loser because he took over when I wasn’t watching. Looks like I am the real loser, because I lost one of the greatest things I had going. I lost you. Sad thing was I was pretty sure you were my best friend. And the worst part is I love you. Who knows if you actually read my blog. I lost my girl. My sweet, cute, fun, smart, good girl. I pushed you away. And reality is I was scared that you were the best thing going for me. My girl who would put a real smile on her face. You may never read my blog but it’s out there now. I did love you then, and no matter how shitty things are, I still love you now.

The art of listening is not something that has vanished. Giving your attention to a person is just as important as it was in the olden days as it is now. Listening to how their day was, what is troubling their mind, and lending your ear to them in a time of need just shows how much you care. Sometimes people are so easily fooled to believe laughs and smiles show the true person. It is often that these are simple masks to avoid revealing the true emotion their soul is feeling. Check up on these people. If you want to show you care, then why not ask to see if anything is going right, or going wrong. So, instead of being told to listen, why not offer to listen. These tiny things are maybe all someone needs.

Met up with all the friends from high school. This is a good way to end break.

There is difference between strong and stupid. Being able to handle oneself when alone is strength. But, trying to perserve being lonely because of fear that people will come in to your life and just leave is stupid. You can’t wish for someone to stay if you don’t even try to let people in the give them a chance to stay. Can’t always look back at the past. Can’t live in the past. Time goes forwards, not backwards. The expression live everyday one step at a time actually has a good meaning. Different things happen everyday, but if you live in the past how can you see the beautiful new events unfolding in front of you. Drop the old act of being tough on the outside and soft on the inside. Not saying don’t have a guard up. Just let the guard slowly come down when it actually feels right.